In1994 We moved back into my
grandmother’s house, which seemed smaller this time, just like every time we
returned. This was the house where my mother lived through her teenage years.
Upstairs there were three bedrooms. I shared with my sister Arlés one that, for
us, was rather boring. Twin beds, a dressing table and a night table, all pine.
The house next door was supposed to be twins with ours, but it was empty,
half-built and covered in bindweed and undergrowth. There were rumors about the
disappearance of the owner, my sisters even said that there where ghosts there,
but I never believed them.
Arlés was about twelve years at that
time. Her big expressive eyes and a wide smile, that showed a crooked tooth,
matched perfectly with her brown wavy hair that was almost always very messy.
For her, four years older than me, it was quite obvious that our parents were
the ones bringing the Christmas presents, that it was fine to bathe the cat
with grandma´s shampoo and that girls in dresses can also climb trees.
I remember how we would sit in the sun
on the roof of the garage to eat oranges and guavas, or how we used to climb
the trees while mom and grandma were telling us to get down quickly, with
trembling angry voices. Arlés showed me how to climb the wall of our backyard
to get to the abandoned house next door. There we hid, we pretended to be
explorers and we drew seas and castles on the naked brick walls with pieces of
lime that looked like chalk. After a couple of years it was very clear for me
to guess that if I couldn’t find her anywhere in the house she was probably
there, waiting for me to come and find her.